Dearest You

I wish I could give you some of my memories and experiences. I wonder what life would be like if you were older and I was younger. Would I make the same choices if our roles were reversed? What kind of a person would you be if you had to live through the things I did? I would never wish that on anyone but sometimes I think you would make completely different choices in life if you had experienced what I did. There is no reason for you to have to experience such difficult dilemmas and grow up so fast because the adults around you are still acting like teenagers, but it seems to me you are doing the same thing at a much younger age, growing up to fast, and trying to go through life much faster than you really have to.  

Your pain causes pain for the individuals who love you so very much! When I see you upset and crying due to the choices and decisions of others my heart goes out to you. The tears streaming down my face are for you and the pain you're feeling. But as much as I love you it frustrates me that the only time you show emotion and get upset is when someone does something stupid and it's not the first time they have done this to you. You keep going back to them and you still call them a friend even though they cause you such pain. Look around and notice all the pain they are causing. Not just to you a friend but their family.

Be a true friend but people can only cause you so much pain before you have to think of yourself and do what's best for you. How many times are you going to let people use you and walk all over you? Sometimes you have to let people fall on their face and hopefully they will pick themselves up and be the better for it. But also know this, which I know from experience, most of the time people fall and hit bottom and they stay there. They never learn from their mistakes and they don't see, or don't want to see, the damage and destruction they cause on their way to the black hole of addiction. Don't let them bring you down with them. You're a better person and have so much potential!

Dearest you I love you with all my heart. I wish you the best and hope you realize I'm always here for you. I don't understand your unending love for some people but maybe that's one of the qualities I love about you so very much. I see your tears and I acknowledge them for true pain and the love of one friend for another.